i walk down the halls quiet now, just looking down.
i dont need to talk and no one needs to hear me
the boy i like hates me for something i didnt do.
i dont talk much anymore, it hurts my throat. so… even
if i told everyone the truth it would still sound a lie.
i feel as if im annoying my friends. im shy now.. and once my mouth opens.. something
gay comes out and no one even looks at me when im talking. ill be ignored instantly
and feel like the huge idiot that no guy would find “cool” or cute.
i am sick from my belly up. at the games.. im always that asian that messes up during halftime.
i know i get made fun of.. i wish i never joined this team. especially with the wrestlers watching too.
i run to my room crying. i even catch myself crying when i sleep..during class..in the kitchen..sometimes
even balling out.. like right now. it comes down so easily.. it wont stop unless fall asleep.
i know im not reliable when it comes to student council.sometimes i cant make it because my parents
are still getting ready. i dont have the parents you have. you wouldnt understand.
my self confidence is lowering faster than usual
my teacher litterally hates me. who gives a child six 0/100s on homework when i have
evidence i done it all? yeah i showed them all to her again, all dated and FULLY complete.
becausewhen i am sick and dont go to school.. people really think im faking it. why would i fake my
illnesses if it keeps me away from my social life..? i know that sounds like whatever yada yada but like..
this whole thing is what im talking about. so much missed schoolwork.. loosing touch with my friends.
what i really hate is when i dont feel like talking to my best friend. like im tired or something. she takes it
like im mad at her. then she ignores me when i say something to her.. and turns around to talk to her
other friend that im not tight with. it bugs me.. like grow up if youre going to be so dramatic about it.. wow.
my tears are absorbing in my skin.
all i could do now is take the offer to move to florida in my stepdads house. i never intended to.. but
i guess i need this. i need to start over. i dont like flemington and i dont like the friends i have here.
